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This is my new blog :) Enjoy! I'm ditching this blog.

http://bernicetls.livejournal.com

Don't Say, "Whatever"

I've been rotting at home for 2 days now after SPM ended, thank goodness on the evening after Chemistry 3 Priya called me and saved my day! :) I owe her a BIG thank you.

I am currently waiting for someone to ask me out. I haven't gone out with any of my TTDI friends yet and i'm still waiting for Jane's reply :( Just because of SPM, i've missed New Moon, Jennifer's Body, 2012, Harry Potter, and whatnot. How pathetic can i get? I'm still waiting for Joel to download The Reader! I've been wanting to watch that, badly.

Ok, imma rot now. Toodles, dear ones! <3

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A New Beginning

I've forgotten how to blog O.O

I iz happy because;

SPM's over

i don't have to wear uniforms no more

i'm going to college, yo!

i don't have to see any of their faces again

i don't have to feel guilty about not studying

i'll be driving, very very soon 0:)

i don't have to sing school songs, national anthem and erm, some more what ah?

i can watch as many movies as i want now

i get to pierce my tongue :D if i want to

as many tattoos on me bottom! Harhar.

I iz sad because;

i'm gonna miss high school :')

Neither Will You

Too many stuff had been happening and i can't take the frustrations any longer. I'm not gonna crawl back to you anymore and apologize. I'm not gonna forgive you easily as i had always. I'm gonna put my feelings and emotions i have towards you one side.

IT'S OVER!

Somehow, i've never gotten tired of Mamma Mia and Hairspray :)

All the best for the PMR and SPM candidates, 09!

Because I Told You So

Finally, after 3 hard, long weeks aching our asses and backs and heads, trial examination is finally over! Needless to say, add math is screwed. I definitely screwed Physics 3 and i'm dead for Chemistry. Shall i say more?

Oh and before i forget, Selamat Hari Raya! :)

You know, some people can actually study during the holidays. Wow, when can i ever do that? -.-

Ok, so i'm terribly mad beyond words can describe. I'm mad..

-at the effin' internet for being so damn nuisance.
-at the stupid Astro for going haywire.
-my phone for switching off all the time whenever i'm text messaging
-at Kanye West for being a complete motherfucking jackass.
-at the damn weather

Yes, i'm extremely mad and i swear to God i can stranggle someone right now. I don't know why is everything going mother effin' wrong! Ugh!~ I just feel like smashing the effin' computer to bits for being such a bitch.

What the fuck is the world turning into?

Everything went wrong today [!]

And yes, i despise Kanye West and Chris Brown.

Falling Over

Oh hello, loves;

First of all, trials is over! Wheee!

Second of all,

Happy 17th Birthday,

Jane! Justin! Munirah! Gerald! Maryanne! :)

Holidays are here! :) Happy, happy, happy.

Toodles, peeps.

Wave It High In The Air

Hello, my dears;

Today's the last day of holidays and nothing much had been going on lately. Trials is in 2 weeks times and i'm definitely screwed for that. Haven't been spending time with baby since the both of us had been drowning ourselves in books. We do things together, right sweetheart? :)

So, i haven't been sleeping well lately. One minute i'll be yawning till i could fall asleep on the couch and the next minute in bed, i could hardly close my eyes. Not only that, been getting loads of weird dreams. Mom said, "Try dreaming of us winning a lottery" :D Haha, i wish.

Anyways, will be going out soon.

Oh and before i forget,

Happy 52nd Independence, Malaysia! ;)

Irritability

Oh hello loveliesssssss ;)

Sorry for the lack of updates. Nothing much has been going on lately and i've been drowning myself in books.

I couldn't answer some questions during Biology class in tuition last week 'cause, MY BIO DICTIONARY WASN'T THERE WITH ME :'( Chee Meng has been so sweet, playing staplers with me. He's such a dear friend. Hehe, i was disturbing throughout Physics since Joel wasn't there me. I was dead lonely and Chee Meng eased my boredom. Thanks for the company, Chee Meng!

Last week, i went to school except for Saturday. Haha, yeah i know. Very few people attended school considering there were some students who got infected by the H1N1 virus. Everyday, we've been called down for an assembly and honestly, it was rather annoying. I actually thought the school was gonna closed down but sadly, it didn't. But school has been fun 'cause not many people attended school. Yes, we're the good ones who made it to school everyday.

Got assesments this week and today was Add Math and Sivik. Well, Add Math; you get the picture.

Gotta hit the books now. Toodles, dear ones ;)

She's All That

Happy 17th Birthday, Joyce!

I haven't seen you since last December. It's been terribly long since we both talked crap online. Furthermore, we're both currrently drowning in our studies right now. I miss you so much :( I hope you had a wonderful time today. All the best in your studies, hun! I love youuuu! :)

Beez Bottom

25th July

Happy 17th Birthday Mahirah & Munirah!

I know you guys are doing great at school. I miss you both so much. We must meet up someday, ok? I love you both! :)

Gonna take Scott out for a walk soon. Ttyl ;)

Malaysia has lost a talented person last night, Yasmin Ahmad. R.I.P.

Malaysia is not a dog-friendly country.

You're Still In Our Hearts

I just watched Larry King this afternoon and they were talking about Michael Jackson's memorial. It was so sad. When i watched it some nights ago, i couldn't stop crying when his daughter, Paris said those words. And those words after Jennifer Hudson sang Will You Be There. I love this song since like, 6? R.I.P, MJ.

School was ok today. I didn't know why i was so sleepy this morning. My ulcer's still killing. I could barely talk at first but then a little jokes here and there made the pain go away :)

It's been terribly long since i've called Mary, Afiqah and Nisha. I miss talking crap with Joyce :(

Ok, so what i've noticed for these past weeks is that, people tend to insult, be sarcastic, curse and swear and walk like clowns just to be cool. I mean, what's so cool about walking while hunching your back as though you got no backbones? What's so cool about being so friggin' sarcastic at others just 'cause you think it's amazingly funny? BOOHOO! It's not. I admit, i was extremely sarcastic when i first moved here but, i'm still working on it. Well, i admitted, did i? :) Joel gave me a long, hard lecture about my act when i came here. I got him to thank for.

Oh, whatever. What am i complaining about?

Oh God, please make the haze go away :(

Hold It!

"I'm sorry for recalling what happened. I just couldn't help myself. You're not in my shoes you wouldn't know how i feel everytime you mentioned him and her. Everytime i see people with similar faces i would just freeze on that very spot. Call me a drama queen, i don't give a crap. For all you know, i just can't forget it. It's not that i don't want to, it's just that i can't! But nothing can ever changed the past. But they don't seem to pass on like a flock of birds flying to the south when it's winter. I'm sorry"

I didn't get chosen for NS! :) But baby did. I'm more upset than he is. Let's just hope he'll get picked on the first batch. Honestly, i don't mind going.

Yesterday we went to the Cheer '09. Cyclonez and Sparkz did their best. I'm surprised Xavier didn't at least, get a runner-up.

It's already the month of July :/ Time's flying really, really fast. I decided to call my dear Nadiah, Noddy :) She and i were talking about MJ this morning, considering we had nothing better to do. Yes, we miss him very much.

It's just a random post. I don't want my blog to look dead :P

Wonders

When i went to school last Thursday, Danial came up to me and said, "Oh, Michael Jackson died." At first i didn't believe but then i looked up to Joel and he was like, "Yeah he died." I don't know why i'm pretty shocked about his death till now. He was only 50 :( So young. Like Elvis. He will be missed and remembered. I'm in love with his songs since 6, i think? But despite his scandals, plastic surgeries and weird behaviours, he's still the best dancer and singer i've known. I pity him more than despising him. Then, Farah Fawcette died 5 hours later after MJ's death. What a gloomy day in Hollywood that day.

Yeah, so i was dead bored at school these past few days. Picture days were on Wednesday and Thursday and we didn't study much for a couple of days. I've been a little off mood lately. I want baby here now :( Well, at least we got some time together at school yesterday considering there were no studies. Hee :)

R.I.P.

Kissing You Goodbye

Hello dear loveliess,

School was ok this week. Somehow the closer it is to exams the lazier i'll get. I don't know why. Earlier this year i kept studying and now i feel like my ass is growing bigger every second :O

So, my results were a total flop. I still don't understand how the hell could i get so low for my Physics and Biology when i studied like shit for both those subjects. Screw Chemistry. I'm dead anyways. But i know i gotta buck up this instant if i wanna do well in trials and SPM. Mom's thinking of putting me in KDU but it's expensive and i really don't mind HELP although the location of the college's funny.

Every little things you said and done, i will never forget.

There's no point grieving over the past for it is gone.

There's no point troubling our minds about the future for it has yet to come.

Live in the present to the fullest and make it worth remembering.

iLy.

Hoping It Will Stay This Way

School was fun today! :)
Results were a flop.
An ice-blended mocha is what i need at the moment.

Clean & Dry

Hello, :)

So nothing much happened during the holidays. As usual. Stayed at home after i screwed the day out with Afiqah :( We go out another day, no? Hee. Anyways, you know what i've just realized?

Malaysian toilets are NEVER clean! And if you want clean toilets, you gotta pay. Gosh, we need 2 bucks just to do our business. I mean, what the fuck.

Malaysian toilets are either clean and wet, or dirty and dry. Clean in the sense that there are no dirt around the toilet seats. The toilets will be wet with water all over the floor. And it'll stink, pretty bad. How come we don't have clean public toilets? When i was on my way to JB, my fam and i stopped at a rest house and the toilet stink like no one's business and it was wet. Yes, i hate wet toilets. I like my feet and shoes to be dry thanks. School toilets are the worst! Don't some people know how the word, "FLUSH" works? I mean, is it that hard to pull the effin' flush? Yeah, we're gonna waste tons of energy by doing that. The stench makes me hurl, and i swear i could throw up in there, anytime. I don't understand is it that difficult to keep the bathroom, at least dry? Even the sinks are filthy! Gosh! If you want clean, dry and odourless toilets, you gotta pay just to do your job. What the hell. Some people, after doing their business, they don't wash their hands! It's so effin' disgusting! Does it kill to wash their hands? Eew, i can't imagine that. You might think that i'm making a huge fuss just for people not washing their hands but imagine this; You're gonna meet a friend and that friend happened to came out from the bathroom without washing his/her hands and you shook his/her hands. You didn't even know whether he/she did the first business or the second. Urgh, the filth that has just been transferred to your hands.

I certainly don't understand what's so hard about keeping the toilets clean and why do some people have to step on the toilet bowl to do their jobs. I'll be laughing my ass off if their legs get stuck into the toilet bowl. Other countries can maintain the cleanliness of their bathrooms, why can't we? Is it that difficult? Their bathrooms are dry, clean, odourless and FREE!

Ok, i'm complaining too much. I'm living in this country so, gotta live with it. The weather's been hot, the days' been dull and i'm extremely bored.

Screw it.

Could It Be?

He won! He won!

Roger Federer won! :D

I'm so sorry Afiqah, i screwed the day. We go out some other days, no? :)

Suck It In

You know what i've just realized?

It's already the month of June! O.O Which leaves only *counting the months on my fingers* 6 months till SPM. The word SPM makes me shiver.

I gotta start on the Add Math project soon -.- Wow, we're given a project for Add Math. Fun, eh? Sickening.

It's just a random post. Just felt like blogging to fill my time. Hee :)

Till then, me lovelieees.

Kickin' It Back

Hello, me heartieeeeeeeeeeeeeeees ;)

I just got back from JB and Malacca yesterday. JB was boring and Malacca was so-so. The weather was killing. I almost died under the sun O.O But it rained at night so it was ok. I brought my Chemistry book for nothing considering i was too lazy to study. Hee :)

Loves!

Honey and Clover

Nisha sent me this funny text message;

Before love or wedding,

HeShe

Yes, i've waited so long for this.
Do you want me to leave?
No, don't even think about it.
Did you love me?
Yes, i did, i'm doing and i'll do.
Have you ever cheated on me?
I'll die than doing that.
Will you kiss me?
Surely, that's my pleasure.
Will you hurt me?
No way, i'm not that kind of person.
Can i trust you?
Yes.
Oh, dear.

To know after being loved or wedding, read it from the bottom to the top.

"It was the first time you ever did that to me. It hurt so much i felt like everything's spinning. I cry everytime i think about it. You promised never to do that to me again. We're both paying the price but i'm paying a much more heavier price than you and you can't deny that. I'm sorry i didn't care for your feelings, and yes i can't blame you for what's happened, happened. But i can never forgive and forget for what happened, it was a true nightmare. Listening to those words and that wasn't the first. Why must i apologized when i didn't even know what i've done wrong? You changed me. I died that night. You refused to listened to me and brought us into this mess. I feel mad everytime i think about it. But we can never change the past. But i still don't know why you're still so stubborn, and so am i. Both of us being stubborn will never bring us anywhere. Let time tell. That's all i could say. I can never forgive and forget for what they've said and now i got that song stuck in my head."

forgive, sounds good
forget, i'm not sure i could
they say, time heals everything
but i'm still waiting.

i'm not ready to make nice,
i'm not ready to back down,
i'm still mad as hell and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i probably wouldn't if i could
'cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should.

*Not Ready To Make Nice by Dixie Chicks.

Baby, you know i still do. You know i do. But if time is not on our side, what's the point?