Honey and Clover

Nisha sent me this funny text message;

Before love or wedding,

HeShe

Yes, i've waited so long for this.
Do you want me to leave?
No, don't even think about it.
Did you love me?
Yes, i did, i'm doing and i'll do.
Have you ever cheated on me?
I'll die than doing that.
Will you kiss me?
Surely, that's my pleasure.
Will you hurt me?
No way, i'm not that kind of person.
Can i trust you?
Yes.
Oh, dear.

To know after being loved or wedding, read it from the bottom to the top.

"It was the first time you ever did that to me. It hurt so much i felt like everything's spinning. I cry everytime i think about it. You promised never to do that to me again. We're both paying the price but i'm paying a much more heavier price than you and you can't deny that. I'm sorry i didn't care for your feelings, and yes i can't blame you for what's happened, happened. But i can never forgive and forget for what happened, it was a true nightmare. Listening to those words and that wasn't the first. Why must i apologized when i didn't even know what i've done wrong? You changed me. I died that night. You refused to listened to me and brought us into this mess. I feel mad everytime i think about it. But we can never change the past. But i still don't know why you're still so stubborn, and so am i. Both of us being stubborn will never bring us anywhere. Let time tell. That's all i could say. I can never forgive and forget for what they've said and now i got that song stuck in my head."

forgive, sounds good
forget, i'm not sure i could
they say, time heals everything
but i'm still waiting.

i'm not ready to make nice,
i'm not ready to back down,
i'm still mad as hell and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i probably wouldn't if i could
'cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should.

*Not Ready To Make Nice by Dixie Chicks.

Baby, you know i still do. You know i do. But if time is not on our side, what's the point?

It's A Little Too Much

Tomorrow's gonna be the last day of mid-terms! Sort of. But screw Sivik ;) It'll be Add Math paper 1 tomorrow D: The horror.

So i somehow can't stand people who are afraid of fury animals, and i certainly can't stand people who actually wear fur on their skins. It's just plain disgusting. Wearing something which they've killed, slaughtered and skinned. What an eye sore. The fucked up world doens't realized how many more animals we need to kill just for our clothes, bags, shoes and etc which cost more than we earn. It's glamorous, yes. But plain disgusting. Wearing and using something dead, can you imagine that?

I'm sorry. I just don't know why i'm a little off mood lately. I tend to get annoyed easily. I had a headache while doing the Add Math exam earlier on at school. Gosh.

I watched Oprah the other day, and they were talking about the number of animals; dogs and cats being killed everyday. More than a million. Tis' 'cause there are some irresponsible and forsaken people on Earth who own puppy canals and they just let the dogs breed and breed and breed till they die. They keep the puppies and cats in cages until they get sent to the pet shop. The cages are forever overcrowded and those poor animals are stepping on their feaces, urine and on top of each other. So, dog populations, over-populated. The dogs who don't get adopted will be put to sleep. How horrific! And they just throw their bodies away as if they were part of the garbage we throw out everyday. I teared. So shut up. Imagine if it happened to my dog. I'll cut those people's balls out, i swear. No one touches my dog. They treat animals as though they're objects. Dogs and cats have feelings too. These people should rot in hell.

To all animal haters out there, get a life.

Thanks for the birthday wish, everyone :)

The Scar Is Still There

Just a random post. Got a date with the books after this -.-

Bio 3 and Sejarah 3 were all crap :/ And for the first time in my life i had nothing to write about for English O.O

Congratulations to Kris Allen!

Although i was hoping Adam Lambert was gonna win. But congrats to both :)

&

Happy 17th Birthday, Rahimah!

I haven't seen you in goodness knows how many days and i miss you so so much! :(

Backing Out

Mid term's this Friday :/ So might not be blogging in awhile. I said, might. Hee.

Anyways,

ALL THE BEST IN YOUR EXAMS, EVERYONE! :)

This shows how bored i was.

I just wish we could go back to where we were.

Doodling Here And There

Hello, me heartiessss :)

Tomorrow's gonna be the school's sports day and i'm not intending to participate in whatsoever. So i decided to skip that and slot at home to buck up on my studies since exam's on the 15th. Yes, you can imagine the pressure O.O The horror.

School wasn't as much fun as it was this week. Gee, shocker -.- Everyone's been busy with the activities at school and i'm like, so effin' lonely in class. Danial didn't go to school today :( No wonder it was quiet. Nadiah was busy with her taekwandoe performances and Mani and Kim were no where to be seen. Joel and Gerald had classes and the others; well you get the picture. So practically i didn't have anyone and i was dead bored, sleepy, lonely and grumpy.

I practically got nothing much to blog since nothing much has been happening lately. Imma hit the books soon.

I want a laptop pretty bad :(

Help? Or maybe Taylor's :)

I miss the good ol' days.

You Jackass

fuckyou.fuckyou.fuckyou.

Down The Drain

The weather's been effin' hot i can die right now :/

While looking through some TTDI photos, i found theseeeeee! :D

Edisons :)

Audrey, Danesh and i ( i totally forgotten about this )

Me sweetie, Afiqah

Me mommy, Nisha

Seng Fatt, Danesh and Chong

form 2 :'(

Joyce Anthony :)

Danesh, Afiqah and i

Nav! :D heee

Form 3

Maryanne and Rahimah :)

Rahimah and the oh-so-chubby me

It'll Never Heal

Just wanna thank the people who helped me for these past few days. It's been rough. Honestly, i really wouldn't know what to do without you guys. I'm sorry if i've been such trouble lately. And i really appreciate you guys listening to every crap and shit that has been happening in my life. It has been a roller-coaster ride for me. I just needed someone to talk to considering i don't really have anyone at school.

I'm sick and tired putting a fake smile and laugh on my face every single time. Acting as if you're happy and you got nothing else on your mind, doesn't help sometimes. You look around, and you can see these happy faces. You look at yourself in the mirror thinking, "Why can't i be like them?" Maybe i'm being an idiot since i've been a little anti-social since i got here but, what the hell. Everyone i used to know, they don't know me anymore. I used to shout, laughed my lungs out, being so talkative in class but now, even i don't remember myself; When have i actually shouted and laughed my lungs out? When was the last time i used to talk without a full stop? *smirk* Even i don't remember.

Yes i'm staying strong for us, baby. We'll go around the rock together.

Thank you for your prayers, Joyce.

And to the others, thank you for everything.

I love you guys. Yes Mary, you too :)

Oh my, oh my. APRIL'S FINISHING SOON! :O

Why must time fly so fast? :'(

P for Pathetic

School has been awesome this week! :) All thanks to my lovely, Nadiah.

Somehow this year i feel like i have no social life. Was supposed to go out with Frisha, Joel, Danial, Gerald and Arifin but Frisha and Joel couldn't go so we cancelled the whole thing. I can't even go out. How pathetic can life get?

Yes Mei Wei, you better get many many pictures at Lee Hom's concert :( Me wanna go.

Thank you Mary and Pauline for making my night last night less suck. It's been an awful night last night. Really appreaciate it you guys. Mary's gonna be holy when she gets back from church camp. Nah, that'll never happen :) Remember what Audrey, Joyce and i did to you, Mary? Heee :) You should thank us.

As happy as i may sound, i'm not. I miss hanging out with Mary. I want Joyce to come back from Aussie. I wanna go out with Afiqah and Rahimah. I miss the twins.

Basically, i miss them very much :(

Get well soon, baby.

It's Been Terribly Long

I wanna go to David Archuleta and Lee Hom's concert :'(

Gah! I haven't been feeling myself lately. Even Jackie told me to chill. Oh, life sucks.

Yes, i'm extremely and terribly bored right now and i gotta hit the books soon.

Have you ever wondered whether it was the right thing to do after you get involved into anything?

Looking back, it wasn't.

I miss you, baby.

Those were the days :)

I miss you guys! :'(