You're Still In Our Hearts

I just watched Larry King this afternoon and they were talking about Michael Jackson's memorial. It was so sad. When i watched it some nights ago, i couldn't stop crying when his daughter, Paris said those words. And those words after Jennifer Hudson sang Will You Be There. I love this song since like, 6? R.I.P, MJ.

School was ok today. I didn't know why i was so sleepy this morning. My ulcer's still killing. I could barely talk at first but then a little jokes here and there made the pain go away :)

It's been terribly long since i've called Mary, Afiqah and Nisha. I miss talking crap with Joyce :(

Ok, so what i've noticed for these past weeks is that, people tend to insult, be sarcastic, curse and swear and walk like clowns just to be cool. I mean, what's so cool about walking while hunching your back as though you got no backbones? What's so cool about being so friggin' sarcastic at others just 'cause you think it's amazingly funny? BOOHOO! It's not. I admit, i was extremely sarcastic when i first moved here but, i'm still working on it. Well, i admitted, did i? :) Joel gave me a long, hard lecture about my act when i came here. I got him to thank for.

Oh, whatever. What am i complaining about?

Oh God, please make the haze go away :(

Hold It!

"I'm sorry for recalling what happened. I just couldn't help myself. You're not in my shoes you wouldn't know how i feel everytime you mentioned him and her. Everytime i see people with similar faces i would just freeze on that very spot. Call me a drama queen, i don't give a crap. For all you know, i just can't forget it. It's not that i don't want to, it's just that i can't! But nothing can ever changed the past. But they don't seem to pass on like a flock of birds flying to the south when it's winter. I'm sorry"

I didn't get chosen for NS! :) But baby did. I'm more upset than he is. Let's just hope he'll get picked on the first batch. Honestly, i don't mind going.

Yesterday we went to the Cheer '09. Cyclonez and Sparkz did their best. I'm surprised Xavier didn't at least, get a runner-up.

It's already the month of July :/ Time's flying really, really fast. I decided to call my dear Nadiah, Noddy :) She and i were talking about MJ this morning, considering we had nothing better to do. Yes, we miss him very much.

It's just a random post. I don't want my blog to look dead :P

Wonders

When i went to school last Thursday, Danial came up to me and said, "Oh, Michael Jackson died." At first i didn't believe but then i looked up to Joel and he was like, "Yeah he died." I don't know why i'm pretty shocked about his death till now. He was only 50 :( So young. Like Elvis. He will be missed and remembered. I'm in love with his songs since 6, i think? But despite his scandals, plastic surgeries and weird behaviours, he's still the best dancer and singer i've known. I pity him more than despising him. Then, Farah Fawcette died 5 hours later after MJ's death. What a gloomy day in Hollywood that day.

Yeah, so i was dead bored at school these past few days. Picture days were on Wednesday and Thursday and we didn't study much for a couple of days. I've been a little off mood lately. I want baby here now :( Well, at least we got some time together at school yesterday considering there were no studies. Hee :)

R.I.P.

Kissing You Goodbye

Hello dear loveliess,

School was ok this week. Somehow the closer it is to exams the lazier i'll get. I don't know why. Earlier this year i kept studying and now i feel like my ass is growing bigger every second :O

So, my results were a total flop. I still don't understand how the hell could i get so low for my Physics and Biology when i studied like shit for both those subjects. Screw Chemistry. I'm dead anyways. But i know i gotta buck up this instant if i wanna do well in trials and SPM. Mom's thinking of putting me in KDU but it's expensive and i really don't mind HELP although the location of the college's funny.

Every little things you said and done, i will never forget.

There's no point grieving over the past for it is gone.

There's no point troubling our minds about the future for it has yet to come.

Live in the present to the fullest and make it worth remembering.

iLy.

Hoping It Will Stay This Way

School was fun today! :)
Results were a flop.
An ice-blended mocha is what i need at the moment.

Clean & Dry

Hello, :)

So nothing much happened during the holidays. As usual. Stayed at home after i screwed the day out with Afiqah :( We go out another day, no? Hee. Anyways, you know what i've just realized?

Malaysian toilets are NEVER clean! And if you want clean toilets, you gotta pay. Gosh, we need 2 bucks just to do our business. I mean, what the fuck.

Malaysian toilets are either clean and wet, or dirty and dry. Clean in the sense that there are no dirt around the toilet seats. The toilets will be wet with water all over the floor. And it'll stink, pretty bad. How come we don't have clean public toilets? When i was on my way to JB, my fam and i stopped at a rest house and the toilet stink like no one's business and it was wet. Yes, i hate wet toilets. I like my feet and shoes to be dry thanks. School toilets are the worst! Don't some people know how the word, "FLUSH" works? I mean, is it that hard to pull the effin' flush? Yeah, we're gonna waste tons of energy by doing that. The stench makes me hurl, and i swear i could throw up in there, anytime. I don't understand is it that difficult to keep the bathroom, at least dry? Even the sinks are filthy! Gosh! If you want clean, dry and odourless toilets, you gotta pay just to do your job. What the hell. Some people, after doing their business, they don't wash their hands! It's so effin' disgusting! Does it kill to wash their hands? Eew, i can't imagine that. You might think that i'm making a huge fuss just for people not washing their hands but imagine this; You're gonna meet a friend and that friend happened to came out from the bathroom without washing his/her hands and you shook his/her hands. You didn't even know whether he/she did the first business or the second. Urgh, the filth that has just been transferred to your hands.

I certainly don't understand what's so hard about keeping the toilets clean and why do some people have to step on the toilet bowl to do their jobs. I'll be laughing my ass off if their legs get stuck into the toilet bowl. Other countries can maintain the cleanliness of their bathrooms, why can't we? Is it that difficult? Their bathrooms are dry, clean, odourless and FREE!

Ok, i'm complaining too much. I'm living in this country so, gotta live with it. The weather's been hot, the days' been dull and i'm extremely bored.

Screw it.

Could It Be?

He won! He won!

Roger Federer won! :D

I'm so sorry Afiqah, i screwed the day. We go out some other days, no? :)

Suck It In

You know what i've just realized?

It's already the month of June! O.O Which leaves only *counting the months on my fingers* 6 months till SPM. The word SPM makes me shiver.

I gotta start on the Add Math project soon -.- Wow, we're given a project for Add Math. Fun, eh? Sickening.

It's just a random post. Just felt like blogging to fill my time. Hee :)

Till then, me lovelieees.

Kickin' It Back

Hello, me heartieeeeeeeeeeeeeeees ;)

I just got back from JB and Malacca yesterday. JB was boring and Malacca was so-so. The weather was killing. I almost died under the sun O.O But it rained at night so it was ok. I brought my Chemistry book for nothing considering i was too lazy to study. Hee :)

Loves!

Honey and Clover

Nisha sent me this funny text message;

Before love or wedding,

HeShe

Yes, i've waited so long for this.
Do you want me to leave?
No, don't even think about it.
Did you love me?
Yes, i did, i'm doing and i'll do.
Have you ever cheated on me?
I'll die than doing that.
Will you kiss me?
Surely, that's my pleasure.
Will you hurt me?
No way, i'm not that kind of person.
Can i trust you?
Yes.
Oh, dear.

To know after being loved or wedding, read it from the bottom to the top.

"It was the first time you ever did that to me. It hurt so much i felt like everything's spinning. I cry everytime i think about it. You promised never to do that to me again. We're both paying the price but i'm paying a much more heavier price than you and you can't deny that. I'm sorry i didn't care for your feelings, and yes i can't blame you for what's happened, happened. But i can never forgive and forget for what happened, it was a true nightmare. Listening to those words and that wasn't the first. Why must i apologized when i didn't even know what i've done wrong? You changed me. I died that night. You refused to listened to me and brought us into this mess. I feel mad everytime i think about it. But we can never change the past. But i still don't know why you're still so stubborn, and so am i. Both of us being stubborn will never bring us anywhere. Let time tell. That's all i could say. I can never forgive and forget for what they've said and now i got that song stuck in my head."

forgive, sounds good
forget, i'm not sure i could
they say, time heals everything
but i'm still waiting.

i'm not ready to make nice,
i'm not ready to back down,
i'm still mad as hell and i don't have time to go round and round and round
it's too late to make it right
i probably wouldn't if i could
'cause i'm mad as hell
can't bring myself to do what it is you think i should.

*Not Ready To Make Nice by Dixie Chicks.

Baby, you know i still do. You know i do. But if time is not on our side, what's the point?